October 13, 2008

I sit here wondering what happened,
My body exploding,
Constantly wanting more.

The urge to buy it,
The urge to take it,
The urge to fuck up yet again.

I spent so long wasting my life away,
I was tricked into an unforgiving life,
A life of nothing sucked me down like a black abyss,
No turning back now.

The tap on my window,
The drawings on my face,
What happened last night,
How am I here?

I lie and cry,
As I wonder why,
Why do I do this to myself,
Constant abuse,
Hurting my body.

It happens yet again,
The pain slowly fades away,
Satanic creatures cheering and laughing,
Allowing me to injure myself further.

The slits start to bleed,
A wince of pain,
Again friends sitting back,
The blunt passed to me,
Another hit.

The more I take,
The more I inhale,
The more I drink,
The more I get completely fucked up,
The less I remember.

The life I once had,
Fading further into the distance,
Never to be the same.