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Yea I still have a job

rainbows.and.me — Thu, 04 Dec 2008 05:29:45 GMT

So good news, the hotels opening back up, which is great because I really didn't want to look for a job.

Bad news is it doesn't open till January, so Decembers going to suck.

Worse news is I doubt its going to last. They fixed the leak by rerouting it above ground. Which would be fine if it wasn't copper pipe, and winter. So will see how long this lasts.

O yea and my paycheck didn't show once again. lol sucks to be me!!!!

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Alone

ClearFlare — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 00:30:59 GMT

As I say goodbye,
With these bloodshot eyes,
The sour taste on her tongue,
Staring me down as if I was young,
Tearing me apart,
She never loved me from the start.

As the tears start to run,
I reach for the gun,
Her footsteps fading in the distance,
I wait for assistance,

My life now crushed,
Everything I had was flushed.
Nothing left but tears,
Knowing that I wont feel the same for years.

The drugs kicking in,
I can no longer feel my skin,
No where left to hide,
I fall down as I start to stride.

Left alone in the cold,
The lies she told,
Nothing but pain reaching up my spine,
The glimmering tears start to shine,
Dark like a black abyss,
My life is spiraling down from this.

Crazy Thanksgiving Weekend (Saturday Nov 29)

Jedi Mind Tricks — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 23:46:12 GMT

Ok.
Saturday was a crazy. Tons of weird stuff happened. Only reason I decided to post anything about it is because of all the crap that happened.

Lets start with the afternoon...

So, there I was getting ready to head out. Got in the shower, got dressed, but then... I couldn't find one of my shoes -_- (found out later the dogs took it and tore it up)
Put on my old shoes, they suck.
Went to Wal-Mart to stock up on glowsticks (my staff takes 8 plus I need some for freehand & strings). Looked all over the place... and there were only 2 on the shelves. After screaming some obscene remarks I frantically search behind every box I could see. At last! I found the glowsticks further down the aisle on the bottom shelf (not in a box) behind a bunch of other crap. Talk about a close call.
After my friend & I filled the gas tank to get ready for the trip, my friend realized he has lost his phone. Most likely, he had put it on top of the car before we drove off. We drove almost 4 miles doing 45mph+ and then pulled over. Phone was still on top of the car!
Now that we are on our way, we start getting amped for the party. A stop light in front of us had just turned red, and the car 2 lengths ahead of us ran it. A cop was behind him, and proceeded to turn on the cherries. This is when I witnessed my very first real life cop chase! Dude sped up like lightning out of our sight. About a mile down the rode the same car was going the other way. Pulled up into a gas station and hopped out of the car. Started running right infront of us (within arms length) and he almost got hit. Counted 12 cop cars and 2 officers on foot chasing him. He must have had some major drama going on.
So, we get into the city, find the map point and looked for a spot to park. Found a parking lot a couple blocks away, not too bad to walk in the cold. Got out wristbands and went merrily on our way back to the car. When we get back, there was a boot on one of the tires. -_- 115$ and many more obscene gestures shouted the boot was removed.
We found the party, found a parking spot that we were sure that wouldnt have anything more happen, and once again went merrily on our way.
The venue was small, but the people were great. Made a bunch of new friends almost as soon as I step in the door. P.L.U.R. everywhere.
2 and a half hours later, cops bust the party. I still don't know who got in trouble, though I do know the cops took my staff. When I asked why they told me to just keep walking. Probably just jealous of the skills! They were all too fat to even freehand anyhow :cussing:
I was able to get my new friends numbers though, and I decided to host an afterparty at my crib.
On the way home, my friends alternator in his car went out. No spedomoter, no music, dim ass head lights. Another roadbump in this story we call life.
Fortunately, we were able to drive the 22 miles back home without getting pulled over.
The new crew showed up 3 cars deep, and there was much rejoicing.
So all in all it was a good night. As long as everybody is safe and sound, making new friends always outways the bad.
(Just wish I had my staff :mad:)

I hate my life....

rainbows.and.me — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 06:00:34 GMT

Seriously my head is pounding, and its raining.

So i'm sitting here in the dark listing to it pound on the roof, o and better yet it rain in the house so I'm listening to it hit the tile too.

I pissed off a god some where.
Only good thing is I'm not nausea, which I should be considering I mixed my beverages.:cussing:

When should you let go?

Steffy — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 05:24:07 GMT

When someone you love tells you to forget about them,
Do you do it? or do you fight for what you love...?

Should you let go, even if it may kill you?
What if the pain is to much to bare....?

Welcome to the Twilight Zone.....A.K.A Arizona

rainbows.and.me — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 03:07:47 GMT

Warning: This post contains nothing but ranting, incoherent thoughts, and randomness! Sorry for any confusion. :D

So my friend flew to Phoenix and asked me to come and hang with him. I'm broke and out of a job so of course I went.

I left at like 11 at night and took 93 to carefree highway on to the 17. I got to see alot of Arizona, and well I would just like to clear some things up.

A. We are now in the 21 century. Major highways should be at least 4 lane. Going 85 on a two lane... little scary.

B. I all most hit something on carefree highway, any one care to make a guess? you will never get it..... yep I all most hit a DONKEY!!!! How the hell do they survive in Arizona, are they sucking water out of tumble weeds or something.

C. Why is ever one landscaping their yards in rocks. The whole state is covered in them, yet you guys pay to bring in more. Get a box drive down the street, fill the box, dump the box in your yard, and spread them around with a rake. There I have just saved you at least a hundred dollars.

D. We need to kill all jumping cactus. Those things are evil, and a plant shouldn't be able to attack. It killed my umbrella, and I really like that umbrella.

E. Apparently asking for directions to a book store is like asking a toddler to do algebra. Expect the the toddler won't act like it knows. I spent three hours and ask six different people, just to find a Barnes and Noble.

F. Whats with the giant washes? Are we expecting Noah's flood? I've been here for a monsoon season, it rain like 3 days. Yet we have washes the size of the feather river. Did some one forget to tell me something.

Other then that we had a blast! :D

10 song set list Oct/17

JTR43 — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 00:11:18 GMT

JTR Productions Presents

Birth of The Raver
set list:

"After Hours"
By Dj Splash

"Always and Forever"
By Dj Splash

"The Bass Control"
By Dj Manni

"The Bass is Kicking"
BY Dj Splash

"The Beat"
By Kimazz Dj Maximo

"A Beautiful Day"
By Dj Splash

"Club Passion"
By Dj 2wardz

"Come Home"
By Zoe

"Crying Soul"
By Dj Splash

"New Life"
By Dj Splash

Every Raver needs...

JTR43 — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 00:09:30 GMT

The Jacket/ Hoodie
The Shades
The Gloves/ Bracelets
The Binki
The Glow/ Poi
The LEDs
The Socks
The Blanket

-JTR

(These are all the things i have come up with so far feel free to add to this list)

The Raver's Handbook (Intro)

JTR43 — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 00:06:59 GMT

In a world based on beats, built by Lights and unified by Dance, the Rave Scene is an Underground Alliance of Both The Warriors of Light and The Warriors of Darkness...

From Hardstyle to Happy Hardcore the range of intricate rhythms played by the Dj enlightens the Raver to Explore oneself and all the ones around...

Through PLUR we see Truth...
Peace
Love
Unity
Respect

And its in the power of our Glow and ability to preform that open the eyes of millions...

We are the Future and Vinyl is our code for we party all night and sleep all day..

We are The Ravers and this is our Life our Music our World our Way...

-JTR

a blank space - shadows in the night

Grace. — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 01:08:45 GMT

is there anyone in this world
who can understand why all i see is gray?

my insides don't want to stay
my body refuses to let go
and my mind says it's all just a dream.

but in the night, i close my eyes and feel like drifting.

and yet, despite this lonely abyss, i'm not afraid.

how do you explain what feels so right, yet makes you want to go so far away?

how do you pretend to live when you shouldn't even be here?

twilight falls like steady stars, waiting to be whole.

the search for happyness begins......

Life can be so deppressing at times...

Daisy — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 14:08:18 GMT

WOW! Two blogs in one day lol

I like the single life it's nice. You don't have to worry about ppl getting jealous or anything. Which I've noticed happens a lot.
Why is that guys?
I'm not saying girls don't get jealous its just the last few guys I've talked to said they're not the jealous type but have been.
I could seriously understand if the case was some TOTALLY random guy walks over and grabs a boob or something like that. But for you to get jealous over a hug between friends is kind of dumb.

I don't feel like life has been very fair to me either bc the cute ones are either gay, taken or just a complete man whore.
Maybe there really isn't someone out there for everyone. I was just telling Crystal the other day not to give up hope and I guess it's bc shes always had it where I've given it up a long time ago.
After awhile you just get tired of shitty ppl treating you shitty and things. Especially when the ppl you trust start hurting you...that's the most fucked up thing of all. I'm not a very trusting person that's good sometimes but at the same time it's bad.
I guess I'm not as good in judgement of character as I thought I was.

I always want the guys that I can't have.
That's pretty damn deppressing lol

I'm to the point now of why even bother with relationships?

What's the point in lieing? I mean seirously do us all a favor and just be honest..up front and honest. If all you want is sex then say it that way we can get on with our lives instead of wasting your time or my time. When I say upfront and honest I don't mean be rude either. lol

Better yet why are DJ's so damn attractive? Is there some kind of rule book or something?
There's a post out there somewhere about posting a pic of yourself...gah! We've got some very attractive members.

I'll just stay single for the rest of my life.

Greenville you SUCK!

Daisy — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 13:38:17 GMT

It's pretty bad when the designated driver gets pulled over right.
I guess had I been drunk I would of noticed the no turn on red light sign but I didn't bc come on you usually only see those down town not to mention I was ready to get home. I thought I was speeding but that's evidently ok in the city of Greenville.

It's $237. Seriously could of just slapped me on the wrist I remember kindness more so than shit like this. All this did was piss me off so now I've just got one more reason to not like cops.

What's so bad about it is it took this guy YEARS! Yes years to write the ticket and let us leave. Not really years more like 45mins and that's terrible I figured ya know well maybe he'll see that I'm not from Greenville and only write me a warning. He said the reason he didn't was bc that ppl coming up over the hill there could hit us and kill us. lol I guess he needs to be pulling THEM over bc I think the speedlimit sign there said 40 or 45 and if you hit us and kill us at that speed then there's something wrong. Considering when I wrecked my previous car I hit her going like 50 or 55 in the side. I know all wrecks are diff but speed is the common denominater there.
There was nothing coming either lol I dont' even know if the sign is there or not maybe it's not and he's a liar and I can take that to court lol

And it's bullshit I wonder how many cars turned right there before we did and he just decided to pull us over. I mean the girl behind me did to (she was following me but still) I think he was profiling. I told Crystal her big obnoxious spoiler would do nothing but get us into trouble...or maybe it's those damn lesbian stickers in her window (jk you know I love you girl) And to think there was 45mins of time wasted where he could of been out there getting the drunks or something but he chose to spend it with us...hmm maybe I should feel special.

One of the first things out of his mouth was "you guys been partying tonight?" I should of said no we're good down to earth ppl who believe the devil gets into your soul at parties and runs away with your wife lol. Seriously though he knew we had been before he asked I guess he just wanted to see if I was a liar or not lol

I think the most annoying part of it was his damn lights. Well that and the fact that it took him 45 mins to write the ticket not to mention he got out of his car to play patty cake or something with the other cop car. Yes two police cars at one point there was three and the third was stopped in the right lane there beside the median. Hows that not illegal...yeah your buddy sure needed back up bc we're so gangsta ghetto we'd glow stick you to death...yes me and my drunk friends Crystal all passed out in the passenger seat lol

I think he thinks I'm not coming to court just bc that's a 45min ride or so. That and the fact he asked me if I knew where the building was and I looked at him and said "Can I not just mail it in?" Before I seen the amount though...I think I will just bc I hope that damn judge is a nice man and all he wants is to see some tities I'd show him just to get out of a ticket...that's not bad is it? If you've got 'em use 'em right. They're not touch me nots OR on display in a museum.

The funniest thing though was Dustin throwing up...well not him throwing up but when he did I kept like trying to pull fresh air into the car from out the window lol That and me half way hanging out the window. It's a wonder he didn't think i was drunk. He seriously took so long I'd done propped my head up be side the seat between the door and seat on her little seat belt thingie. I took a quick lil nap before he got the ticket to us.

You're welcome for not driving drunk. Although I think we'd be better off had I been jk

I'm not really mad anymore though...I see what he was saying I just don't see why he wrote the ticket for so much.

Moral of the story kids is: If you're going to turn right on red you damn well better be drunk or not in Greenville lol jk

Floating Courtyard

rainbows.and.me — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 22:21:38 GMT

This is the week from hell....with vacation time.This all started yesterday, I was at work by 5 o'clock letting grave go home and setting up for the day. I had to train yet another idiot(and I mean idiot) which means the I had twice the amount of work to do that day. He showed up late, and the whole time he was there he just talked about pot. A brand new job, were he had no clue who I was and he just talked about pot. The Idiot didn't even notice the everything he said was on camera and being viewed in the bosses office.

So I sent him packing and I doubt we will ask him back. But the kid was like a bad omen or something because the day only got worse. The water company came to let us (the hotel I work at) know that in 11 days we have used 400,500 gallons of water (about 8 Olympic sized swimming pools) which is impossible for a hotel with only 50 rooms.

So Gerri and Gene (my boss) start messing with the cut off values to try and find the leak. While I man the front desk and explain to are customers why they have no water. Of course it didn't go very well and about this time we discover are pools draining, to were we have no idea. Gerri and Gene give up in finding it and go to get lunch.

They were gone a hole five min when the housekeeper ran to the front desk to let me know that are court yard was flooding, and as weird as this sounds floating. I thought she was being dramatic, of course i was wrong.

I locked up the desk and walk in back and one corner of the courtyard had a puddle and you can see water bubbling up, but other then that everything was dry. I jump over the puddle to the "dry" rocks on the other side and sink up to my ankles.

Apparently in AZ people seem to think weeds can still survive so when your yard is landscaped they put a black tarp like thing under the rocks. So it was 3 o clock and are entire courtyard was floating like a dam boat.

I called in my relief and had her come and cover the desk, while Gerri, Gene, and I tried to dig up the leak. Problem with that was that any break in the tarp, water would shoot out of it. So theirs the three of us in business attire, Gerri and I in heels, digging were ever water came out trying to find the leak.

After about an hour of that Gene goes to dig and his shovel goes all of the way into the ground and I mean all the way. We had found are self's a sink hole that went at least 4 feet deep and 4 feet wide ( 4 feet was the length of the shovel and it did not touch the end).

We were in major trouble and we still haven't found the leak or where the swimming pool was drain from (Obviously both were in the courtyard but we couldn't find were in the court yard) but that no longer matter because now are courtyard was to dangerous to be around.

My relief is an idiot, and we knew that from the start (that's the reason my boss had me move from Oregon to Arizona, because she couldn't find any one with a brain) so we sent her home. I took over the desk and started calling all of are guest and making other arrangements for them. While Gerri started calling all of are employees to let them know we were shutting down, and no one need to come to work.

It was 7 o'clock I was covered in mud, dealt with pissed off customers, Idiot coworkers, and still hadn't eaten. We had three customers who tried to refuse to leave, so we spent 2 hours dealing with that. So at 9 o'clock I finally got to go home, and I get till at least Wednesday off, of course not paid.

I have worked in a dozen hotels for the last 3 years, I have dealt with some of the weirdest things you can imagine, but never have I had to deal with the shit that comes up here. The dam hotels cursed or something.

Either way I now have to try and find a second job (something else I never have had to do) because between are paychecks being late and the hotel being closed down for an unknown time, I have no idea how I'm going to pay rent. So YAY for me :D

Well that's fucked up.

Keijiaurion — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 22:17:03 GMT

Well, all last week, things seemed to just be fucked up in general. And it was only getting worse and worse. Saturday was the culmination. But let's start with what started to go wrong?

Tuesday was when things first started. A friend I recently made, I found, was copying my work. I'd nearly gotten in trouble for plagiarism. Except I figured out that he was taking pictures of all my work on his IPhone when I would go to the bathroom or something. Not cool. One friendship ended.

Wednesday, a friend of mine had gotten extremely drunk at a party (on fucking Wednesday =.=) and I had to go save their ass. Why? The person throwing the party turned out to be a kid in my class that I'm working on an assignment with and he called me to tell me to save my friend. Great way to ruin your social face, by associating with that person. *sigh*

Oh, and that person that I'm working on the assignment with was supposed to meet with me Wednesday, but he had "something important to set up for". Needless to say, he got an earful, I did the assignment by myself, and he got a 0 because I didn't put his name on it on purpose. x) And it was worth 10% of our final mark. Fucker.

Thursday, the guy confronted me with two of his friends. Wanting to avoid a fight, I told him to fuck off, then left. Later on in the day, his girlfriend comes up and slaps me saying I put him in depression. Good. I just took her bullshit and kept going to class >_>. Was supposed to go shopping with a friend, but they never showed up because they didn't want to pay for gas. So there went a day of getting things I needed (hat, gloves, some things for a project).

Add to that, all week I'd been in a generally pissy mood, and just took it out on the wrong people. If you read this, you know who you are, and I'm sorry. But realizing what I was doing wasn't putting me in any better of a mood. ><

Friday was fucked up, though. I got a letter from my prof that I'm failing music ensemble class (it's on a pass/fail basis, not marks), because I haven't been able to attend the practices. Why? They're on Monday Nights, but I've had mid-terms every monday night since the last week of september. So I've been to a grand total of 3/10 practices.

Then my parents made me come home. Last minute, too. I told them I couldn't because of a mid-term on monday, but they said it was more important. So I said fine. But when I went to go get a bus ticket from the school, they were obviously sold out. Great. Took a Greyhound, and while they're more comfortable, they also cost 40$ to go home, and take an extra hour. Oh, my parents didn't pick me up at the train station either, so I had to pay for a train and bus ride home. Total money spent going home was about 50$. That's not something plausible when you're trying to live off of 600$ for 12 months of food.

I got home, and instantly got yelled at for being late. I shrugged that off, then got told to cook dinner. What. All during dinner, I was subject to the usual bullshit of "Are you sure you should be in that course?" along the lines of questioning my choices. Which made me want to yell that I'm not doing this for me, but for them, because it's something they wanted me to do in the first place. If I had a choice, I wouldn't be in this school, wouldn't be taking math or computer science.

That night, went to bed pretty late. Played vids till I passed out. When I woke up though, it wasn't good...

I woke up at about... 9 am? I could hear my dad yelling at my mom about money problems. Again.

Honestly, she's my mom, and I love her, but she's a fuckwad when it comes to cash. I think I've said this before in another journal. But what I heard this time was the worst I've heard so far.

Somehow, $2000 had gone down the drain somewhere. And my family isn't exactly in any sort of state to be throwing around that much money.

I'm not totally sure on the next part, considering I slept at oh, 4 am,and thus only had 5 hours of sleep. But I think he shouted something about that money being from my school fund.

... Which means that if that's true, and they can't replace it, I don't have any money to pay for the last part of my tuition come January.

...

Then I heard hits. And sobbing.

He was beating her.

Honestly, I don't know what to feel. She deserves it for being a fucking blockhead and a fucking cunt. But my dad should have known better by now to trust her with funds. They should both be beaten.

I fell asleep again, and woke up at 12. My mom woke me up to say they were leaving to get me groceries to pay for the trip home, and wondered what I needed.

They left, and well, I don't know. I've been kind of broken since then. I mean... what am I supposed to think now?

I think life has it in me for whenever I have a test or something big. I can only remember a lot of times where something big has come up to me, and I've lost focus because of something else that's happened.

...

Whatever. My last mid-term is tomorrow. Hopefully, this means the last of this shit I have to deal with.

I've already suffered through 18 years of it, right? I'll take Another 18 Years for $400, Alex.