a blank space - shadows in the night

is there anyone in this world
who can understand why all i see is gray?

my insides don't want to stay
my body refuses to let go
and my mind says it's all just a dream.

but in the night, i close my eyes and feel like drifting.

and yet, despite this lonely abyss, i'm not afraid.

how do you explain what feels so right, yet makes you want to go so far away?

how do you pretend to live when you shouldn't even be here?

twilight falls like steady stars, waiting to be whole.

the search for happyness begins......