Introspection from a Ranter (CAUTION EXTREME RANT)

well, i was listening to "Just Be" recently and it really made me think about how true it is. im know fro ranting, so bear with me. since all u guys know about me is what ive posted, i think this will clear up a few things about me personally.
ive always like a good vampire story, rice mostly, but meyer is my current favorite. the dark and mysterious world has always fascinated me. im a lover of the theatre, of art and music. bands like the cruxshadows, evanescence, and nightwish (i miss Tarja) were and are my world. ive been known to frequent museums and the occasional cemetary (theyre actually great places to go and think). if its victorian theres a good chance id like it. tim burton. no explanation needed. and ive cornered the market in sunscreen... im one of those high risk skin cancer types, just a little while and im redder than a tomato. and i dont know why, but man the sun burns like fire on my skin. just a low tolerance i guess.
ive always been a little idealistic, and a bit ocd, but ive always tried to do what i felt was right.. though it didn;t always end up that way. lol. u c im a stron believer in the idea of there being no coincedences, and that everything has a prupose. so i try to not let things get to me. im reletavle well tempered, but there was always a breaking point. i used to bottle everything when i was younger and every so often (one every couple months) a small thing would set me off, man im glad that doesnt happen anymore..
forgot to mention im an anime/cartoon fan.. big time. inuyasha, trigun, code geass, vamp D, vampire knight, naruto, gargoyles, the pirates of dark water, gundam wing, macross, mononoke, castle in the sky, .hack//sign, Bleach, deathnote, the list really just keeps going so ill stop here before i lose track of what im saying.

and yet, there was still another side, hidden, locked away.... the side of me that i had sealed away years before. this world was too harsh for that side of me to survive alone, but i found something... something here that made it possible. although i am myself, i am also a raver.. drawn in by that irresitable beat that merged with my heart and awoke a yearning within me. the glow of a swinging glowstick in the night, the splitting of light through a prism, and the desire to dance, dance to the music that calls me until my legs give out.

i suppose that there was a meeting of two distinctive beings in my mind. the merging of the aristocratic goth (for lact of a better term) and my inner candykid. and somehow these two seemingliy oposite entities have balanced the scale of my inner world.. and at least they can agree on one primal fact.. i am and for ever will be a night person..LOL