Man, my parents are decently bittersweet.
Posted 09-01-08 at 03:47 AM by w00t
So..as very few (one person) in gxg know my parents are split up and I've been through hell and back. Although I know many people are having worse times I still gotta get this off my mind. SO..Mom and Dad didn't divorce well. It ended up with dad hitting my mother and mom hitting him back and running away, and then a few days later kicking him out. Ever since then they have both sent my life spiraling downwards.
Well to start it off, my mom always likes to fight and stand up for herself (I commend her by the way, but she is doing it the wrong way). She always misinterperates what I say and she sends it to dad through email..I get a call 1 to two hours later and I spend 2 hours listening to dads BS and soon after feeling mentally wasted and not wanting to really talk to anyone. It happens every once and awhile. Dad wants to build a relationship..but his idea of hanging out doesn't really interest me. "Hey...want to come over to my house son?" me: "No...:P" Him: "No, you don't get it, your coming over". I used to be a daddys boy..I always wanted to look just like my dad..and be just like my dad..up until I relized that him passed out on the garage floor with beer cans all over the place wasn't him sleeping. And his consistant yelling wasn't caused by alchohol. Beer effects the mind. And it truely sucks having to go through life as a kid like that. Now..he thinks i'm some kid that only wants his way and is spoiled and a person that aims to do nothing but horrible things. It's something that I have to deal with everyday.
Unfortunatly this is a slightly small blog, but I needed to get this off my chest..Thanks for reading (those that have)
Anyways...As usual.
~Kage OUT..~
Well to start it off, my mom always likes to fight and stand up for herself (I commend her by the way, but she is doing it the wrong way). She always misinterperates what I say and she sends it to dad through email..I get a call 1 to two hours later and I spend 2 hours listening to dads BS and soon after feeling mentally wasted and not wanting to really talk to anyone. It happens every once and awhile. Dad wants to build a relationship..but his idea of hanging out doesn't really interest me. "Hey...want to come over to my house son?" me: "No...:P" Him: "No, you don't get it, your coming over". I used to be a daddys boy..I always wanted to look just like my dad..and be just like my dad..up until I relized that him passed out on the garage floor with beer cans all over the place wasn't him sleeping. And his consistant yelling wasn't caused by alchohol. Beer effects the mind. And it truely sucks having to go through life as a kid like that. Now..he thinks i'm some kid that only wants his way and is spoiled and a person that aims to do nothing but horrible things. It's something that I have to deal with everyday.
Unfortunatly this is a slightly small blog, but I needed to get this off my chest..Thanks for reading (those that have)
Anyways...As usual.
~Kage OUT..~
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Yeah dude, I'm sorry... I've been through a similiar situation, my parents split before I was born, and the court was while I was a lil kid, and like, I had court ordered visits with my dad, and he was an ex drug lord biker, so there was a lot of inappropriate influences for me and a lot of shit went down because of it...
Like it's not you're situation persay, but still similar, so I understand and kinda feel where you're coming from.. I hope things turn out better for you, but my advice for going through that shit, is find some hobbies, and throw yourself head deep face first into them... I dealt with that kinda shit with my poi and my guitar... |
 
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Oh, and make sure you vent...
I wouldn't change anything that has happened to me, but I would DEFINATELY change the way I dealt with shit if I could... Don't suppress you feelings... that is WAY unhealthy, and that's what I've done, and it rips you apart if anyone makes any of those feelings resurface. |
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Trust me man..I know where that leads. I punched walls and Stuff..almost broke my hand last time
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I don't want to say I know how you feel, because I don't. But I do want to say that I come from a divorced family too, and it can certainly be rough at times. So good luck, and to focus on you right now. You can get through tough times, and we are here to support you through it!
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